http://www.janefosterphotography.com/
Below is the picture I had in my head that Jane was able to capture so well. Love the lopsided belly :)
IF D was miked in this pic you would hear "You owe me so big for this!" haha
Monday, June 18, 2012
Maternity Family Shot by Jane Foster
http://www.janefosterphotography.com/
Below is the picture I had in my head that Jane was able to capture so well. Love the lopsided belly :)
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Our little Miracle.....
Its taken me awhile to be able to post this story...Not just because it is so intimate and raw, but I feel like I need to share it with everyone and want to express it correctly....
I had been waiting to choose and transfer to a midwife after my 20week ultrasound. Dylan was out of town and I went to get the results from the OB. He simply said we needed to repeat the Ultrasound b/c they did not see a small membrane in the baby's brain but not to worry the baby was moving a lot and they probably couldn't get a good picture....well I worried...and started researching (bad idea)...
The small membrane is called the Septum Periducullim, its a small Membrane that divides the brain, which is not exactly the problem, the concern is that it is in the midline of the brain where all kinds of important things meet up including the optic nerves, the corpus callus, as well as the pituitary glands. Its extremely rare for it to be missing, like .2 out of 10,000.
I was referred to a Radiologist that I saw the following Tues.
It wasn't good.
He clearly showed me where the membrane should be and it was clearly not there. I fell into a tunnel at that moment. He started on a long list of different diagnosis, what else could be missing, a bunch of things I couldn't even begin to focus on.
Manly what stuck out was his rush to get me to an MRI so we could see WHAT ELSE was missing, so that we had the opportunity to terminate......
Well, of course my world fell apart. Or more like it stopped. I spent hours on the internet looking for any glimpse of Hope. I found a few articles but most of them showed the varying degrees of Septo-optic displasia, (WOW, these parents are amazing, I just don't know if I could be that person...) to a forum that had stories like "I do not have a septum and am fine", or "My daughter is a blind but successful musician" which I held onto, but most were really scarey.
First the guilt, all Mamas know it
Mama Guilt...
THe thinking back to every time I forgot to take a vitamin, ate sushi, or took a sip of wine, to the absurd like driving with my cell phone in my lap, or not choosing organic.
I felt like the most selfish person on the planet. I saw dreams of our family future falling apart. It was hard but I learned a lot.
A lot About myself and about what you don't see inside the people around you that might be hiding something huge they are dealing with, just trying to fight through the day.
A lot of patience.
My Mantra became "Lord, grant me the strength to accept the things that I do not control".
It was hard, and am not sure I convicence myself I was that strong of a person.
Finally the big day. Dylan took off a special friend took the girls for the day so we could get through it all. (how blessed I am)
It started with yet another ultra sound that showed the same results. Quite room. Lots of important smart people from Texas Childrens, with blank stares. Then to the MRI, where I laid for over an hour b/c the baby did not like that loud noise and it was hard to get a good picture.
Then Lunch,
not much eating,
plenty of worry.
lots of love.
I can't believe how much my husband loves me. and I him. What a rock I married.
We go back to meet the head neurologist who has agreed to come over to give us the results b/c it is so rare....great.
They put us in a room, close the door and 2 min later returns with a box of tissues that she sets right in front of us....awesome.
I will never look at a box of tissues the same. ever.
The Doctor arrives finally and after some small talk turns to open the results and says, " I don't know how to tell you this...but I have great news! everything is there! everything is fine"
WHAT?!
"See" He says " I told them you were going to cry!"
indeed I did.
Turns out they never see it 'reapear' on an MRI, like I said these tests were to see what else was missing not to find out the baby was fine. The explanation for it is that the septum is actually two thin layers of membrane very close to together and this baby has a small gap making it less dense and was not picked up on ultrasound.
Whatever, I have my own explanation, my prayers were answered.
My rock said "just remember to pray for all those who left this room, that did not get the results that we did." I love him.
We normally do not find out the sex of our baby....but after all those expensive pictures it was quite obvious that we are having another beautiful baby GIRL :)
And could NOT in anyway be more happy.
It puts new meaning to ..."as long as they are health"
Here is a video of our little blessing, its a new technology called an MRI movement study. SO COOL :)
I had been waiting to choose and transfer to a midwife after my 20week ultrasound. Dylan was out of town and I went to get the results from the OB. He simply said we needed to repeat the Ultrasound b/c they did not see a small membrane in the baby's brain but not to worry the baby was moving a lot and they probably couldn't get a good picture....well I worried...and started researching (bad idea)...
The small membrane is called the Septum Periducullim, its a small Membrane that divides the brain, which is not exactly the problem, the concern is that it is in the midline of the brain where all kinds of important things meet up including the optic nerves, the corpus callus, as well as the pituitary glands. Its extremely rare for it to be missing, like .2 out of 10,000.
I was referred to a Radiologist that I saw the following Tues.
It wasn't good.
He clearly showed me where the membrane should be and it was clearly not there. I fell into a tunnel at that moment. He started on a long list of different diagnosis, what else could be missing, a bunch of things I couldn't even begin to focus on.
Manly what stuck out was his rush to get me to an MRI so we could see WHAT ELSE was missing, so that we had the opportunity to terminate......
Well, of course my world fell apart. Or more like it stopped. I spent hours on the internet looking for any glimpse of Hope. I found a few articles but most of them showed the varying degrees of Septo-optic displasia, (WOW, these parents are amazing, I just don't know if I could be that person...) to a forum that had stories like "I do not have a septum and am fine", or "My daughter is a blind but successful musician" which I held onto, but most were really scarey.
First the guilt, all Mamas know it
Mama Guilt...
THe thinking back to every time I forgot to take a vitamin, ate sushi, or took a sip of wine, to the absurd like driving with my cell phone in my lap, or not choosing organic.
I felt like the most selfish person on the planet. I saw dreams of our family future falling apart. It was hard but I learned a lot.
A lot About myself and about what you don't see inside the people around you that might be hiding something huge they are dealing with, just trying to fight through the day.
A lot of patience.
My Mantra became "Lord, grant me the strength to accept the things that I do not control".
It was hard, and am not sure I convicence myself I was that strong of a person.
Finally the big day. Dylan took off a special friend took the girls for the day so we could get through it all. (how blessed I am)
It started with yet another ultra sound that showed the same results. Quite room. Lots of important smart people from Texas Childrens, with blank stares. Then to the MRI, where I laid for over an hour b/c the baby did not like that loud noise and it was hard to get a good picture.
Then Lunch,
not much eating,
plenty of worry.
lots of love.
I can't believe how much my husband loves me. and I him. What a rock I married.
We go back to meet the head neurologist who has agreed to come over to give us the results b/c it is so rare....great.
They put us in a room, close the door and 2 min later returns with a box of tissues that she sets right in front of us....awesome.
I will never look at a box of tissues the same. ever.
The Doctor arrives finally and after some small talk turns to open the results and says, " I don't know how to tell you this...but I have great news! everything is there! everything is fine"
WHAT?!
"See" He says " I told them you were going to cry!"
indeed I did.
Turns out they never see it 'reapear' on an MRI, like I said these tests were to see what else was missing not to find out the baby was fine. The explanation for it is that the septum is actually two thin layers of membrane very close to together and this baby has a small gap making it less dense and was not picked up on ultrasound.
Whatever, I have my own explanation, my prayers were answered.
My rock said "just remember to pray for all those who left this room, that did not get the results that we did." I love him.
We normally do not find out the sex of our baby....but after all those expensive pictures it was quite obvious that we are having another beautiful baby GIRL :)
And could NOT in anyway be more happy.
It puts new meaning to ..."as long as they are health"
Here is a video of our little blessing, its a new technology called an MRI movement study. SO COOL :)
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Rodeo-Mutton Bustin'
We have some good friends on the Mutton Bustin committee at Rodeo Houston. Their son was going to ride this Sat so we decided if Ella in anyway wanted to do it, the only way she would is when her friend did it too, and she knew some of the adults in the stadium. So we made a last min trip to the rodeo on a Sat while my Mom, sister and niece were in town.
Of course as soon as we walked near the barn where they were just starting a round, Ella went white and started freaking out, saying "I dont want to do it!" We put no pressure on her, Papa just held her while we watched the first kids go, and the announcer seemed to get less loud! lol...I simply said, "Its completely fine if you dont want to do it, but remember only 5 and 6 year old get to and we might not be back next year." She thought long and hard and said yes. (well at least it would only be $15 that we would loose when she turned right around in the chute)
Papa waited with her as they dressed in their vests and helmets and I took to the stands, even Aunt Melissa and Uncle Mychal showed up to cheer her on!
This picture is where I just KNEW she would kick and scream and say NOOO WAY! as they put her in the chute.....but she didnt!!!
And this is also the point where I just LOST it! haha FULL ON crocodile tears! My timid little baby is growing up so fast and so BRAVE!!
Her Sheep was named "Ewe go Girl" haha perfect, and jumped right out the gate and stoped. The man leaned down give her a nudge......
And she took off!!! ran super fast all way to the end :) Score of 93!! (over 90 is great!)
She fell off stood up and they picked her up as she did the cutest little wave...(I missed that pic, b/c I was too busy sobbing my eyes out yelling I cant believe she did it!!! ahaaaaa!)
Ella walking out at the end, like "whatev...I got this" she ended up 2nd place to a little boy with a score of 95.
Of course as soon as we walked near the barn where they were just starting a round, Ella went white and started freaking out, saying "I dont want to do it!" We put no pressure on her, Papa just held her while we watched the first kids go, and the announcer seemed to get less loud! lol...I simply said, "Its completely fine if you dont want to do it, but remember only 5 and 6 year old get to and we might not be back next year." She thought long and hard and said yes. (well at least it would only be $15 that we would loose when she turned right around in the chute)
Papa waited with her as they dressed in their vests and helmets and I took to the stands, even Aunt Melissa and Uncle Mychal showed up to cheer her on!
This picture is where I just KNEW she would kick and scream and say NOOO WAY! as they put her in the chute.....but she didnt!!!
And this is also the point where I just LOST it! haha FULL ON crocodile tears! My timid little baby is growing up so fast and so BRAVE!!
Her Sheep was named "Ewe go Girl" haha perfect, and jumped right out the gate and stoped. The man leaned down give her a nudge......
And she took off!!! ran super fast all way to the end :) Score of 93!! (over 90 is great!)
She fell off stood up and they picked her up as she did the cutest little wave...(I missed that pic, b/c I was too busy sobbing my eyes out yelling I cant believe she did it!!! ahaaaaa!)
Ella walking out at the end, like "whatev...I got this" she ended up 2nd place to a little boy with a score of 95.
I cant lie Im a proud MAMA :D
Ainsley got to ride the Pony :) and was quite happy to stop there haha!
Ainsley got to ride the Pony :) and was quite happy to stop there haha!
Monday, March 5, 2012
OK someone needs to help me
figure out how to keep up with this stinkin blog!!! Grr! ITs not like I dont have the time, I would rather jump on here and add an update with the few mins I get (like "bath time") instead of checking fb (over it), refreashing email (seriously, when is the last "important" email I have had??!?!), or preggo forum (OK, totally addicted)....I think my biggest problem is we have a center "HUB" computer upstairs in the office, the sit down office-y kind where all the external hard drives are that store pictures and movies and music and what not. Gag me.
I think if I could figure out a way to do a quick post from the laptop I could keep up so much better, but then I would have to save and go upstairs to add pics at some other point....
what am I missing?
HOW do people do EVERYTHING from their laptops?? (BTW, this nerd thought it was Labtop up until like 3 mths ago when D finally corrected me, I thought they were made for the lab, you know like the geeky scientist in me thought they were for the first time I saw one 20 years ago! ha) or even Ipads (not that I have one, but I do know a photographer friend that does everything from hers) without storing every picture one there and slowing it down??
Im blog illiterate! someone fix me!
All comments welcome and appreciated :-D
I think if I could figure out a way to do a quick post from the laptop I could keep up so much better, but then I would have to save and go upstairs to add pics at some other point....
what am I missing?
HOW do people do EVERYTHING from their laptops?? (BTW, this nerd thought it was Labtop up until like 3 mths ago when D finally corrected me, I thought they were made for the lab, you know like the geeky scientist in me thought they were for the first time I saw one 20 years ago! ha) or even Ipads (not that I have one, but I do know a photographer friend that does everything from hers) without storing every picture one there and slowing it down??
Im blog illiterate! someone fix me!
All comments welcome and appreciated :-D
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Playing Ketchup...Big Changes
A lot of things have changed since then, that slowly weighed on me...The new baby coming in June, a possible move over the summer, and crazy Ainsley. I decided that a new baby, a new school, possibly a new country and going to school full time was just too much change for Ella over the summer. At least if she moved now she would get used to everyday and once less thing to 'change' over the summer for her.
and probably the bigger motivator, Ainsley. that kid is like 3 kids in one, and she has never had any one on one Mama time, since they both go to mothers day out at the same time. I knew she needed this before baby.
First week was rough, but as long as I STICK to the routine!! she is fine :) If Im late or miss the bye bye gate wave, she looses it :(
And I was right with Ainsley too. The first couple of days were rough, I didnt realize how much they entertain each other!! but she has grown so much with some one on one time and we even knocked out potty training (YIPPEEEE!) in the first week!!
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| Went upstairs and came down to this....Ains washing dishes. When I asked her where her clothes were she said "I was getting wet, and didnt want you to think I tee teed in my pants. Im a big girl now" :( ...yes you are and so clever too! |
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Nola wedding...
We were greatly honored to be invited to a good family friends wedding in New Orleans. New Orleans will always have a special place in our hearts since its our first "home". In some ways I wish we would have gotten married there, but there is no way it would have been as perfect as this wedding! Wedding in the Cathedral, second line march down the square and to the reception inside Jax bewry. WOW! We had a blast, it was beautiful. And a nice little romantic weekend for us to remind us of where we started.
Congrats to Loni Kay and Troy. Beautiful wedding!
Congrats to Loni Kay and Troy. Beautiful wedding!
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Christmas cards are out!
Most of you have received this card already, but just in case! One of my favorite things to do every year, and this year with a big announcement. We are all very excited, especially Ella. Mama has been feeling YUCK, but slowly getting better. This week will be the begining of the second tri for me and hopefully Ill be feeling much better too!
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